this lil girl just visited the doctor
yet again.
once last month, once this month
which is not good ):
it feels like its secondary school again.
where i was barely in school,
always at the docs
i hate being the weak one
this time, was a totally different thing
i'm having chest pains like i've never had before.
i'm so tired of breathing that i want to stop breathing
which is not possible of course.
duh?
went to the docs, wow, he filled up the whole page
with words i don't understand
then he said that he thinks its because of gastric
the wind is making me breathe hard
and its soooo painful.
and worse thing, this made mummy worried
she kept saying "A&E,A&E"
cause he said if it persists, i'll have to be sent to the A&E
which i soooo don't think its necessary.
so i'm on MC today from school
and its the only 2nd week of school
i don't want to let my illness stop me from what i'm doing
of course, right now, i'm going way beyond my limits
i've got to decide what are my priorities,
and set them straight
cause smack back to reality, i'm not strong,
i can't handle and juggle what i'm going through now
and........
best part is that all me medicine are all green and white
yucky much?
yesss, very
my medicine used to be sooooo pinky, and blue,
light colours ):
now i don't want to take my medicine please
sighhhh
ps/ can't wait for halloween this saturday
oot-oots tagging along. shabby i miss is coming (sleepover please!)
pray that i'll be fine?
well this post is all about me.
shall post on school soon alright?
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 1:44 PM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
We each take different paths in life. but no matter where we go,
we take a little of each everywhere.
i survive my first week in Year 2 Semester 2
pretty much really very tiring
i've got cheer on Monday, Wednesday and Friday
which means ending at 9.30pm
then most classes starts in the morning.
grrr
but i think the module on psychology for exceptional children will be interesting.
haha
well, i had chest pains last night
that equals to difficulty in breathing
equals to not a good night, and i cried trying to get to sleep
oh well, i don't know what's the source of the pain.
but i'll be fine
cheer training tomorrow!
and i got to go!
i need to do better for basket toss, and load in faster
):
daddy got us transformers 2
and i just love watching it (:
the thrill, the love, the action,
all in one movie.
okay, got to get to the docs to get asthma tablets
got to be well tomorrowwww
ps/ i miss you.
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 12:09 PM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
lil baby alana (:
i worked with this lil baby for 7 days, just taking care of her
got attached to her, just like my princess Anais
but she's too young to remember me.
but i had fun. playing with her, feeding her.
i've been missing from blogging
last post was like.....
idk?
school has started
new lecturers, some old.
but i can say, its a killer, because, we have to cover 8 modules
in this short semester
someone say kill me right now.
pfft.
i'm working doubly hard for cheerleading
its so strict now.
but i hope i can endure and work hard.
stunts have to be all up
i have to jump higher.
this is something i'm fighting for.
just like dance during secondary school.
so here's to me
family, studies, cheer
got to keep my health going.
cause right now, it really suck.
pretty much a short update
cause there's nothing much to update.
toodles everyone (:
will try, TRY to update more often
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 7:09 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
sleepless nights.
terrible nightmares.
yet, the source of what's causing it is unknown.
sad much.
i'm feeling so weird right now,
its that you don't have enough sleep
but i've been catching up with my sleep during the weekends
but i've been having bad nightmares
i sleep early, but i wake up like 2-3 times
and it gets so difficult to get back to sleep
sigh
this is frustrating
feeling really tired right noww.
you know what's the best part,
i took the wrong side of the train without realising it ):
call me a BIMBO today
cause i am
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 1:14 PM
Thursday, October 8, 2009
as i walk through the crowd,i look for images of you
words can't describe how much i'm missing you
the urge to hug and kiss you
)':
i'm praying that you are fine
every single day
cause i want you to see me get married
i love you Nyai
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 10:08 AM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
my superhero that i'm missing so much
the ones that encourages me to never give up.
live has been a roller coaster ride.
and 'the climb' by Miley Cyrus has never fail to encourage me not to give up.
FAMILY, my priority, can never be replaced.
i love the oreth's
i'm babysitting now
like lil Anais
i now have lil Alana
all this lil babies.
its interesting to see them live their life
and me being part of it
being their 'nanny'
i'm staying over at Bik Siti's house now
vacation i can say (:
thank you bik siti, for allowing me to sleeep over
my sleep over since a very long time
now, i take 45 mins to get to work
better then the usual 1 1/2 hours
tell me about it
and its cheaper!
god, i don't know how much it was to get from home to work.
heart pain just spending on transport.
so many things happening
school's opening soon, looking forward to it
hoping for a great next weekend.
daddy, wait for me (:
Nasri, you're leaving for NS
):
i'm going to miss you buddy
no silly jokes from you for a very long time
please take care, come back in one piece
contact me if you can!
most importantly, have fun alright
i'll try to finish your book asap!
sorry its taking a long time though ):
well, i'm off.
till the next post,
cheerios
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 9:23 AM
Sunday, October 4, 2009
LIFE IS SHORT
they say, it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them
a day to love them
but then an entire lifetime to forget them
MY TIME at LV@NCS HUB
my 1 month of experience, actually working at a childcare
good experience i can say.
doing opening and closing of the centre
having fun with all the kids.
my last day @ work
we coincidentally celebrated children's day
had our own Hi-5 coming into the centre
of course, its us teachers
consisting of me
glad to be part of the celebration.
i had fun, gave them goodbye hugs
i'll miss all those morning madness
those laughter
Suriani going "buat ape tu"
hahahahaha
thank you so much, teachers @ LV
yet again, i've made friends i'll never forget
:D
sorry for the very lack of updates
as per usual, was working during my last week there
Monday & Tuesday, worked from 8.30am-7pm
Wednesday, 7.30am-5pm. followed by cheer
Thursday, 8.30am-7pm
and finally, Friday 7.30am-5pm
damn tired, tell me about it.
sorry to those i didn't invite, it wasn't very big
but i had fun (:
catching up
and the oot-oots reunited again
finally
and meeting my baby, after a ka-zillion years!
righttt
i just miss her so much.
well, i can say
my life's not perfect now
decision to make
courage to make it
sigh
i feel like i'm going for a total mental breakdown
there's so many things which i want to do
to bring everything to light
but things just stop me from doing it
god, give me courage
to make things right
without hurting many people.
this is my post, for now
and thank you mr nashri (boy)
for driving me around yesterday in your bumblebee
its been a long time since i update about magnum
sigh, i feel so far away.
far away because i'm tired of my life.
xoxo,
aqilahoreth
cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 8:07 PM
