that lil' princesss

Sunday, July 26, 2009

my kick ass siblings that make me hooo hahhhh!

:D thanks to no camera, they resort to my laptop!

our awesome presentation!

everything we imagined, was all done up,

everything we've put effort in, paid off

and we were proud of our showcase

ily mel bea, mel chong, rach mak, saidatulfatimah

i need to make a change

my friends say they miss me!

i don't use to be so paranoid as i am now

i don't use to get so upset like i do now

what's happening with me?

idk ):

i need a total makeover!

oh last FP lesson implementation

wish me luck

with the bronchitis still there :/

gahh, i'm just so very afraid right now

got to go for Magnum traning!

i miss cheerleading!

thanks to those, who have cared for me when i'm sick

especially mummy, who cooked, took me to the docs, made sure i ate medicine

gave me plenty of water, checked my temp every now and then

i'm a lucky girl aren't i?

teehhee

and daddy, for calling to ask how i am

i hope i'm good enough a daughter for you

insyallah :D

ily <3!

back to work!

got to stop being a work-a-holic :/ its taking a toll on me

ggrrr

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 11:14 PM

Friday, July 24, 2009

many roads to take,
some to joy, some to heartache,
anyone can lose their way.

i am speechless
i am lost
right now, nothing is going the way i wanted it to be
right now, i've lost my hopes that i set out to achieve
right now, i feel like a total loser.

great, and i only got myself to blame.
cause it all comes down to me.
the disappointment i got,
sigh.

i failed my MAYC lesson plans
so hopes to do well is gone.
just like that. pooff
)':
stupid aqilah, so darn stupid.

and to add on, i might just get kicked out from cheerleading
cause total, i've missed 3 trainings
thanks to me being sick
great aqilah, just great

when are things going to be on the right track again for me?
idk ):
i'm just so very disappointed in myself
so,so disappointed
can someone take me away please?

xoxo,
aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 5:24 PM

THINGS TO BE DONE BY TODAY!
OR NO SLEEP FOR AQILAH ORETH!

- fp evaluation for the 2 implemented lessons
- whole essay draft for aw by today!
- start on DLE

go,go AQILAH ORETH!
or you'll so be dead ): you've missed out so much this whole week
sigh, just when i'm about to get well, i'm stressed out again
lets do it! and hope that i can get well and be stressed at the same time
insyallah i can do it!

xoxo,
a very stressed aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 3:13 PM

Thursday, July 23, 2009

this princess yearns to break free

this princess yearns to live in a fairytale life.

this princess yearns to figure out the next step in life

this princess years for everything to be alright

this princess wants everyone to be happy

this princess does not like being sick

this princess does not want to be a weakling.

but then again................

it all comes down to reality,

to what's happening around.

it is not clear why things happened.

god just made it happen.

but then again, everything happens for a reason.

it is not clear why you love someone or that someone is your friend

but hey, you should be glad to know that you love your family as they love you too

surrounded by tons of friends,

it only questions a person, are they really my friends? or is it just temporary?

that we can't really judge, but wait for time to tell us the answers.

this post is soo................

idk what to call it either.

i've got MC for another 2 days,

today and tomorrow ):

people will go yay!

i'll go die. shit, crap

i know i put everything else before my health

well, i think they're more important as long as i can move, read, write, speak

but docs didn't let me go cause i'm having cough

bummer

i'm sorry dearest girls, to be missing out in class

and unable to unpack on Wednesday after presentation

glad that's over (:

see, even when i'm sick, my mind won't be fixed on recovering

it'll be...

reports

presentation

assessments

seriously man, i'm such a work-a-holic

i should take a chill pill

wait, no more pills

i've been taking pills for such a long time, till i'm immune to it

which! is not a good thing!

i can't get to sleep at night ):

and will be constantly awaken thinking i'll be late for school,

even though i don't have school

wth right

now is the sick season

please take care, seriously

its not fun at all being sick

you'll feel super useless

like how i'm feeling now

back to doing work

see, its always work

got to rest soon

sorry for the lengthy post!

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 10:26 PM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

fever, fever go away.

come again another day

lil aqilah wants to do her assignment

please go away, and don't come back )):

i had a very high fever last night

till lips went all purple.

and i vomited out my medicine ):

sigh, i hate this feeling so,so much

but i don't usually get fever, this is the first

insyallah i'll be fine tomorrow

hopefully no fever tonight ):

i've got DLE presentation.

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 6:18 PM

Monday, July 20, 2009

time can chase me, but i can't chase time.

i'm sick and down,

all thanks to my stubborness of not resting

pfft

haven't got Bronchitis since like forever?

i think the last time was when i was in sec 3 or 4?

idk, but i thought it would never come again.

every cough i make feels like i'm being stabbed.

my head feels so heavy that i feel like fainting

i don't like feeling like this ):

sighsigh

but aqilah deserves it! ):

lesson learnt, not to overstress

someone take me away.

2 more days till DLE presentation,

wish me luck!

sorry this is not a lengthy, or fruitful post

will update a proper one next time alright?

ps/ all the best for your test tomorrow! i have faith that you can do it (:

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 10:41 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009

you left me lying in a pool of doubt

i should have know better but i didn't

and i can't go back

oh, life goes on and its only going to make me strong.

its a fact, once you get on board, say goodbye cause you can't go back

its goodbye to yet another assignment

MAYC presentation,

got to hand up the report though,

its okay! going to get through this

rightright?

life loves throwing us test and obstacles

but...

it's not meant to break us down.

it is to get us up to think.

got to stay strong, cheerful and most importantly be myself.

-written by anonymous (:

true right?

yes, i so agree!

my stomach is hurting like crap now

i wonder why ):

grrr, hatehate.

back to assignments

life can never get any better than this!

ha, like real

babysai :

my dearest sayang, at this point of time, be strong

i know you are, but you're only human, who will break down at this time

you know you can count on me no matter what

cause i always want to see that smile and that laughter of yours

its not clear why i love you so much, like a sister (:

but i really,really thank god to have blessed me with you as a friend

you've gone to the extreme to make sure i'm well

i'm going to do the same now, when you need someone the most now

if it is within my means, i promise, i'll do anything

ily baby

cause in your eyes i'll like to stay (:

babyrach :
and you're going through a rough time too.
just know, that i'm always there,
i've always been there with you
you can talk to me anything under the sun,
cause i would loveee to see you smile, and hear your snorts when you laugh.
cause you're one friend whom is important to me,
ily baby

to the rest of my friends :
a lil something for you,
once you're a friend of aqilah, you'll always be
no matter what happens, even if we quarrel, or i may distant myself
its not because i'm forgetting you guys, just that i'm really busy figuring out my life
but i figured it out already
i've prioritized my life, family, school, friends, other activities
i'm sorryyyy
but i lovee all those who has been concern about me.

such a lengthy post, but idk if its actually making my readers bored
i'm so,so, sorryy!
will do a proper post

goodnight world
aqilah's feeling blessed and wouldn't ask for anything more (:
she's contented with what she have
and treasuring every single moment of her life.
be it the bad, or good (:
thank you

xoxo,
aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 1:23 AM

Monday, July 13, 2009

the people you can never ask to replace with anything else.

my sister and my brother. (spare our ugliness, it was the tiring point of ourlife at that time. HA!)

the 2 adorable parents i love, playing UNO with us for the firs time

i swear, they are soooo cute. they look at each other cards, and tack team to defeat me and isaac

tell me, how cute can my parents get?

of course, we were having a picnic at botanical gardens, so played UNO under the sun.

finally, a MAGNUM PICTURE

spot me, spot me

hello all,

today, another satisfying good day of fasting.

making me have more faith in myself each day

i like fasting, it gives me the drive to do things, and not just slacking around.

daddy allows me to go for magnum camp.

till saturday of course,

but i should be thankful already (:

broke fast with baby saida today

hahaha. nice dinner

and we're fasting tomorrow!

and this time, i'll break fast with mummy

i'm getting use to fasting that it seems like its fasting month.

yay!

anyway, i've got this itchy hands that wants to bake, so when i'm free, i'm going to bake!

cookies (craving so much for it!), actual cake! wow, that'll be the first

and many, many moreeeee

and did you see the picture above?

where we were playing UNO

that happened on Sunday, and the day before, meaning Saturday,

we climbed up bukit timah hill.

quite satisfying (:

i love family activites done outdoors,

be it just lazing around the pool, having picnic there

or, just window shopping

its the company you have that really matters right?

yesyes

next month!

is filled with plenty of things to do!

batam is one of them (: yay!

july isn't over, and i'm already talking about august.

bummerrr

hahahaha

oh wells, back to work ayeee

AW essay, here i come!

and i hope you'll get me an A too!

insyallah

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 10:36 PM

Thursday, July 9, 2009

You said it wasn't gonna be like it was before
Then it happened again, pushing me back out the door
Thought it would be for real this time
Love made me forget about the signs
So now what do I do
Now, that I know that we're through

Wish that I could move on
Can't let go it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Is this how you wanted it to be
Everything you had to say,
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape the misery

goodbye to FM project report

hello to the other projects in line.

oh ya, got an A for my DLE project

alhamdullilah.

my prayers are all answered so far

leaving my faith in god.

insyallah, everything'll be fine.

right now, there's twist and turns of events

i'm feeling really sorry about drifting apart

i'm going to prioritize what's important and what's not.

i've got to get more energy for the family who always cares for me

i love you mummy, daddy, isaac and of course, the sister whom always dotes on me.

no more distractions, nothing else should be my focus but getting back with my family

i know i can do it.

plus, thanks for the friend who was there for me

it's the past. but still, thank you

i get it now, i needed that explanation

but still, everything has its risk

its whether you want to take that chance or try out.

cause everyone will get hurt eventually, its just how you take it

but still, that's my point of view.

anyway, today went for some free health thingy.

hahaha

guess what, everything about me is healthy

except for.......

i've got LOW BLOOD PRESSURE

can you believe it?

when they told me that, i was like oh, i think its genetic

hahaha

my mummy has it

i think i'm becoming more like my mum

got her migrane, got part of her looks(duh!) and now the low blood

anyway, the person says that i've got higher risk of fainting,

but i'll be fine! i need to rest more according to them

mel bea, stop emphasizing it! hahaha

alrighty, got to go back to work

need to work on my lesson plans

told you its never ending

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 3:23 PM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

hang on to the past tense tonight don't say a word i'm okay with the quiet the truth is gonna change everything so lie to me and tell me that its' gonna be alright so lie to me and tell me we'll make it through the night lie,lie,lie

great, ITBD's lecture is canceled
so was MAYC
we're all stuck in school
with 6 hours of break, officially going crazy,
could have accompanied baby to the Discovery Centre
pfftt.
its alright, we're still doing our project,
but currently stonning at blk 52, thanks to the morning lecture
okay, currently grumbling

there's an AW test later
at 5.30pm
rahhrahh, hating AW much.
yesyes

i'm wishing i'm on my bed right now,
with no worries, just sleeping the day away
and of course, visiting lalaland, my imaginary land
fairytales don't exist do they?
i doubt they do as much as i believe in it
we're always back in this world, smacked down

i've been fasting for 2 days now
no problems, cause i know my faith is stronger now
fasting month would be no problem for me!
i just hope that my mensas don't come,
then i'll fast full, for the whole month!

i got a 'pretend bf' in cheer!
hahahaha
his nickname 'zack' because no one can pronounce his name!
he is super high everytime, madnesss

cheerleading tomorrow (:
yay, something i always look forward to!

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 1:28 PM

Monday, July 6, 2009

so i'll let you go,

i'll set you free

and when you see what you need to see,

when you find you come back to me.

and i hope you find everything that you need

i'll be right here waiting to see

everyone's feeling the pressure.

i know its not only me

A01, lets do this!

we've been through this, the mental stress

its all in the mind, once you're set on it, don't let it out of sight

right now, only thing in my mind is to complete my list of assignments/tests/exams

to mark the end of year 2,term 2, first semester

till then, say hello to late nights, stressing out, brainstorming ideas

i pretty much know what to do, just need to do it!

cause mostly is group work, and with the H1N1 pandemic,

gosh, we're all falling sick,

but...... we can do this!

lets think positive,

cause somewhere over the rainbow, great things await us

and as per usual, whatever effort we put in will pay off

i'm sorry if i'll seem restless/tired/away/distance when i'm with family/friends

cause i'm abit of a lil pressurised

baby's sick, i hope she gets well soon

): i don't like seeing her sick

neither did i like seeing kak liyana sick

she cried by the way, cause her chest pain

i panicked, didn't know what to do

but she's better now, alhamdullilah

i think she's stressing herself out too much

or its the aircon at wisma atria causing her to get sick

okay, i'm done with lesson plan!

finally, going to do some of my AW work (:

lets see what assignments/tests are due shall we?

7th July - AW test

9th July - FM report (group)

15th July - MAYC presentation (group)

DLE proposal (group)

16th July - FM presentation (group)

21st July - MAYC report (group)

22nd July - DLE set up & presentation(group)

24th July- FP Music and movement lesson plans (indiv) & ITBD poster(group)

week 13-15 - AW essay consultation (indiv)

these are only the ones due in July

more to come in August

good luck to me!

back to work!

xoxo,

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 12:57 AM

Friday, July 3, 2009

to the significant ones i love

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO THE WOMAN I LOVE

MELISSA BEA, born on the 2nd July 2009

we celebrated her birthday yesterday,

with bread pudding baked by me, and a lil present from me,

and of course, not forgetting big birthday card by us

thank you woman, i thank your mummy and god for sending you to me,

being my first best friend in Ngee Ann poly

and always going through stuffs with me,

thanks for being a great friend

i hope you enjoyed your birthday

ily <3

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUMMY

my happy pill who turns 45 on 29th June 2009

but we celebrated her birthday in Batam, so it was advance

i hope you liked your lil surprise

planned by me (:

even though we squabble alot, you know that deep down i still love you

i just wish you'll see and open up your eyes, seeing things i've done for you. sigh

ily mummy, and i thank you for being a great mum, bringing us all up.

HAPPY BELATED DADDY'S DAY

the man who tells us right from wrong, who knows his stuffs

who tries to understand us

the superdaddy who's in batam for us, for the whole week despite hating it

the one who has alot of endurance, my motivation to what life's all about

the one who has logical explanation for every doubts i have

ily

i hope you liked what we got you

cause it was from the bottom of our heart

lastly.......

(no picture)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KARMEDE SALIM

he turns 22 yesterday :D

wonder who this guy is?

lol, he's a friend i made from Sports Camp

one of the seniors.

the one who always disturbs me with the "who are we" clap.

grrr, but yet, the one who cares for me like a lil sister (:

my best friend who brightens up my day,

i hope your wanted wishes come true, and i hope you like my lil gift :D

good luck in trying to figure out life, cause i know you will

take care :D

its back to assignments

i've been having sleepless nights

idk why.

this sucks

till next post, take careee all :D

xoxo

aqilahoreth

cause it was you whom i fell in love with
♥ 10:06 AM