you know what they say about coincidence?
there's no such thing as coincindence.
be patient and tough ;
someday this pain will be useful to you.

i've lost my drive to blog ):
inspirations aqilah, inspirations
just look at the wonderful world around you

firstly, got back from Batam
unique this time.
1st. had facial, yes i hate the complexion of my face right now, i'm pretty much ugly-fied
2nd. first bbq there, with Auntie Sarinah
3rd. celebrated mummy's advance birthday
4th. celebrated daddy's day there
5th. ate alot, gain alot of weight (that's not so new. grrr)
6th. had rashes on face :/ hate the not clean water there.

so that's my trip cut short.
good getaway though.
thank you daddy and mummy.

so here i am, blogging in the middle of the night
can't get to sleep
bummer, tell me about it
got to wake up pretty early to get to harbourfront on time
aqilah can do it.

you know what hurts the most?
oh well, no one knows.
i know i'm not perfect
not a perfect friend, daughter, sister. etc....
but one thing's for sure is that i'm trying real hard.
just that comments that is smacked to my face hits real hard.

i've spend my whole of last week with my family
i'm really glad about it
but its my last week, so i need this time,
to start on assignments + de-stress with the friends
but i'm feeling so sad everytime i'm going out
because i'll get pressurised by mummy
):
because every single thing i do is wrong,
because i'm going out?

i love being at home
but at times, i don't want to be at home
i've got enough assignments, test, deadlines to think about.
screaming doesn't help at all
sigh

i guess, i just have to get used to it
idk anymore
school's next week
not excited

i seriously lost my touch for blogging
what happen to happy thoughts aqilah?
i need to cheer up, jump around.
sit somewhere, not think of anything, just letting everything go.
seeing the sunset, playing in the rain
things i like to do.

sorry, not a proper post (yet again)
i hope today would be a better day.
yes, i should be optimistic!

Isaac's sick now, hope he'll get well soon
gastric flu, i think he got it from my dad
weak stomach
i'm the only one who has the strong stomach
(: no gastric flu in my life before

daddy's missed in Batam
ily

time for this lil girl to get sunggled up in bed.
goodnight world
and ps, i've finished thanks for the memories
yet another great book by cecelia ahern
next up, the gift

xoxo,
aqilahoreth