exhausted
hands are aching from cheer.

had a 'celebration' today, in advance for mummy's birthday cum gathering
every month, my aunties and uncles gather to talk about nyai
which is a good thing, but quite tiring when you have to actually host it

anyway, went for a midnight movie yesterday(which means this morning)
transformers 2 was likka awesome!
sseeriouusllyy
though we were watching the 12.20am movie
i didn't even fell asleep, which i usually do
thank you for the movie daddy :D
and day was spent with shasha the kentot i love and miss so much!
like finally we met, went to sentosa, went for luge

then i had to leave for cheer(alone!)
dear lisa and qi en didn't come ):
i was with hwelee and poh chin!
i made more new friends, but i suck at remembering names ):
sighsigh

i think i'm retarded
bleah, i'm tired, yet i don't want to sleep
nyai's not getting any better
and just now, the maid said to me, she showed signs
signs of death,which everyone goes through
i know i have to accept it.
so i may say i'm prepared, but maybe i'm not?
i don't know
i just want to spend every moment with her, treasuring it, no matter how tired i am

i'm d-e-a-d tired
i've got to get to sleep
toodles all

there's alot of things in my mind right now,
alot of unanswered questions
why, why?
idk why.

xoxo,
aqilahoreth